Keeping me sane

  I have come to realize that I may be just a tad bit crazy. I love to watch ridiculous tv, still listen to the same music I did when I was a kid, enjoy coloring , and playing in great out doors. I enjoy giving and reieving a good ribbing now and again, but will defend my families honor until someone falls. By no means am I a violent man, but pushed to the brink I would be. I have learned to keep my temper in check, but I know where to find it if needed.
  As I was watching Duck Dynasty last night I realized that Family is what I want. I want my kids to always remember there roots, hell I remember mine. I also still love going to my mama's house for dinner, love talking with my dad, and sisters. I just wish we all lived around each other.
  I still cry when I read stories of heart ache or truimph. I love it when I see something good happen, and get really mad when people are being stupid. I have almost come to blows with people over their use of the word retard. I know my brain is a little frayed. I also know I should take something for it. I won't, I love the mood swings, and I am ussually on the up swing. 
  I work really crazy hours, sometimes there isn't even a 8 hr swing between shifts, but I get up every day and do it. I love everyone there, every minute that i am working. Reds rocks and they took a chance on this old tattoed guy. They have taught me how to really develope flavors in food, and develope relationships with people half my age. I don't know if I will ever leave there.
  I the one real thing that keeps me sane is my wife. Rachel is the one person that no matter what is happening around me an pull me back to earth. She is my guiding light in a weird and dark earth. She is teaching me every day how to coup with things I can't control. With out her and the good Lord, I would be a complete wreck. She is the person that has banished the evil in me. I  owe her my life, and would give it for her and the kids.