Watching our little girl grow

I was realizing today that my little irl is growing up. She now has ways she wants things lined up, opened and played with. I watch her play with toy groceries and wonder is she really only 2.9 yrs old. She plays, and watches her shows as if I am not even around. She still "needs Help" which means come sit by me so we can play toys, or tells me where my chair is. She tells me good bye, gives me hugs, kisses and all the attention any one man could deserve. I never realized as a younger man how important a family was, but I would trade my life for anyones. I am a very lucky, happy, proud amn. My wife puts up with all my craziness, she takes really good care of me. I have no complaints about anything. I know she will continue to grow up and I will have to continue to change with her, and I know the challenges will get harder, but for now just playing with plastic food, and view master is all I need to worry about.

Tiger Woods

I am a very forgiving man, but I don't understand what would make a man or women cheat on there spouse. To me there is zero reason, if you don't want to be that person and want to go out with others there are ways to legally do it. I don't feel anything in the way of compasion for the man. I may be old fashion but there isn't a person in the world that could make me want to cheat, it destroys families. He has lost any respect as a father, husband and a man with me.

Watching her grow

As I sit her typing this I am amazed at what our little girl can do now. There was a time were her every need was on us, now I can do dishes,vacuum, and use the computer while she plays. It is a sad thing, but also a very happy and proud thing. She really is into playing with her toys and she even invites me to play. I get to knock on the door of her play houses with her little guys, and then she takes them. She counts to ten, knows her abc's, and even can use some sign language. I attribute all this to the fact she gets to go to grandma's and not day care because she gets one on one help with everything. I watch as her voice and words change, as she asks to go to grandma's house to see the dogs. It is amazing to me. I wouldn't change the past, but I will try to impact the future in a positive way. I realize now that family is the most important thing in the world, so there is no time to figure it out. You make this commitment the day they are born. I am going to be the best role model I can be, and continue to watch her grow.

Every extra minute counts

This morning I awoke early enough to watch my alarm go off, so I did the usual morning thing, shower, shave and I got ready for work. My beautiful wife need to get ready also, so I kissed her and was ready to head out the door. I then heard our daughter start to talk through the baby monitor, so I went in and sat on her big girl bed with her while she talked about her toes. We watched blue's clues and waited for mommy to be done with her morning routine. I was really close to being late for work, but it would have been worth it for the few extra minutes I got to spend with her today. I got hugs, and all the enjoyment of being a dad by spending that time with her. although she usually asks for her mommy, I know she loves me, and I know she knows I love her.

Watchin' fofa take a bath in a teapot

It is so cool to me to watch our Daughter grow and learn. It is making glad to be a dad. Today it was watching her climb the stairs like a big girl, then watching her interact with her yo gabba gabba guys. She was giving one of them a bath in a teapot. She is learning so much I only hope I am smart enought to keep teaching her. I am not the sharpest tool in the shed, but I will continue to try hard to do what is best. Thank God I am not alone in this, with the love and help from my wife, God, and family she will grow up to be smart like her mommy.

My little girl's eyes

When I sit her on the computer desk I can look straight into the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen. They say so much even if she isn't speaking to me. I see her happiness and her little mind working on things. I also see my beautiful wife. I can also see trouble. She will be a handful as she grows and I can't wait for the adventure to continue. she will be a challenge like I have never had, but I won't be alone with my bride with me we will bringing a world of happiness unto her. I love my family and can't go one day without telling the world so.

The love of my life

I was a very lonely man through out my twenties, I had many girl friends but not a one of them I ever thought I was going to marry. I drank all the time, party to the wee hours of the morning, never cared once about the damage I was causing, both to my body, brain and sanity. I was an Asshole to everyone i worked with and didn't care if they liked me or not. I was taught that respect thru fear was still respect. So I tattooed my body, pierced my ears, and became the monster. Now don't get me wrong to my family I was always there, but they saw very little of me, holidays, and occasionally elsewhere. I wanted to end my life on many an occasion, but never succeed. For that I am greatful. On valentine's day in 2005, I had just finished a terrible blind date, went on line and "winked" at my now wife. She responded, we started "IMing" and we decided we should talk. The moment I started to talk to her I knew I was ready to fix my life. After our 3rd date I knew I was going to marry her. After 6 weeks I proposed, she said yes. We married less then a year later. I love her more and More each and every day. she has given me things no other woman ever has, a beautiful little girl, and unconditional love. I am who I am not who I was, and she loves me for it. Hence she is the love of my life.

Mother"s Day

So this holiday I love, and this one for sure. Our little Girl ,having just reach two years old, is starting to get more involved with the gifts for my wife. She helped me pick out the flowers we got for her mom to plant in her flower pots. I had a terrible evening at work the night before, and the night before that. But when i got home, saw my wife sleeping in our bed with our little one, I knew today would be a special day. I am making homemade mexican food for my family. My sister is making a dessert to bring, it is the one day when my mom doesn't have to cook. I still have to work this evening, having to deal with college kids who are either having to study for finals and forgot to ask for the day off, or college kids who's whole lives revolve around drinking, and parting. I will make it through today, and throught the rest of them until the day I find a job where the kids don't have such emotional roller coasters. I know tonite when I get home I will be met with a loving hug, a good night kiss, and the love of a real family.